Why do we worry so much? Moneys Tight Things are always tight money-wise – they always have been. Every month there is something extra to pay for . . . the gas runs out, the car breaks down, the washing machine stops working. But for the last 25 years we have had holidays, new clothes, cars, food – not the most luxurious holidays to exotic destinations, or the latest cars, and not designer clothes or food from M&S, but we have had what we’ve needed, and more. And for the last 35 years we have worked hard. And we have given to charities and we have given our tithe to our Church – and sometimes we have just not had enough. Sometimes we spent money we shouldn’t have, sometimes we spent money that we had to take a loan out for and sometimes we used our credit card. We bought our children birthday presents that they wanted, extended our house and went on holidays. Perhaps we shouldn’t have, but our daughter’s talent for music was released through the piano we bought her, we were able to fellowship with people in a house that was able to sit our friends around a table and host a home group in a living room that could seat more than 3 and going on holiday meant we created strong bonds with our children that kept us close, safe and loving each other. I Saw His Faith and I Started to Trust Whilst we have worked, raised a family, run our own business and served our Church and our God with passion, there are times when we were sick with worry about how we were going to pay for everything – sleepless nights, arguments and fighting, tears, stress and panic. Once we had to get a reconciliation loan, once we had a bailiff’s letter, a couple of times we nearly lost our house. Then my husband started to get sick from the worry – migraines, sickness, sleeplessness. It got to the point when he couldn’t work he was so ill. Then God whispered into his heart Matthew 6, “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap not gather into barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they . . . And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil not spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith”. And my husband started to thank God for His provision of work, which started to pick up. He started to trust Him for provision with his whole heart. And I saw his faith and I started to trust God. I had to push the panic down and read the scriptures: “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing”. “Which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life”. “Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’. For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added to you”. “Casting all your anxieties on Him because he cares for you”. “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God”. I Know He Will Never Let me Down We prayed together and we continued to work hard and to thank God for his provision of work. And over the next few years someone put £500 through our letterbox one Saturday morning just when we needed to replace the tyres on our car, and then someone gave us £4500 to pay the arrears on our Mortgage. Someone else gave us £100 when we had no money to buy food. We got a PPI claim paid out and just last month I got paid £500 too much in my salary. When I called up Payroll to tell them they had overpaid me, they told me I had received a tax rebate. We needed £500 to pay our bills that month. God knows what we need. He has never let us down. We have made mistakes, been greedy, tried to do the right thing, often done the wrong thing. God has always been there with us. We have learned hard lessons along the way, which I hope we will be the wiser for. It has been a difficult journey, but it is in giving that we have received so much more. This is how I have learned to trust in the Lord my God with all my heart. I know He will never let me down. Allison Piggott is the author of this blog and gave The Greenhouse permission to publish her testimony of hope and faith.